I’ll admit it. I recently hurt my shoulder rolling over on a loveseat.
Yes, a loveseat.
At first, I thought I’d just tweaked it. I got up and watched the movie Michael Clayton. I hoped a little George Clooney would cheer me up, and it sort of did, but my shoulder was killing me. Then I went out to lunch at a nice B&B. At the B&B, my mother-in-law (MIL) and I were trying to have an in-depth conversation about her poetry when I started sliding down in my chair to the point I couldn’t sit up anymore. I drank 3 glasses of wine and hoped the pain would go away. It didn’t. While MIL was very pleased that I understood what she was trying to do/say with her poetry, she thought my shoulder/neck injury had taken a turn for the worse.
So off to the ER we went. By the time I got there, I could barely sit or lie down. I could only stand with my right hand on my head while leaning to the right. I couldn’t move my neck. The doctors gave me this shot of Valium, which I thought was a painkiller.
Valium, actually, is a drug used to make a person not care about pain. It doesn’t erase the pain, it just makes you not able to focus or care about anything.
Turns out that I have something called torticollis, which is caused by stress. My MIL told the doctors I was stressed out because I had been battling State Magazine (oh the drama), and they agreed that’s probably why I was having these severe back spasms.
Anyway, while on Valium for three days, the following things happened:
1) I rode from Boston to D.C. without even noticing the drive happened. I don’t remember any of it.
2) I spent 45 minutes staring at my critique partner’s pages thinking, “This isn’t right. This isn’t what happens here. I know she changed it.” 45 minutes later, I realized I had opened the wrong file.
3) I tried to work on my new manuscript, a dual narration of a boy and a girl, both in first person. In the middle of a scene, I started writing both characters in first person. In the same scene! Again, I didn’t notice this for at least two hours I think.
4) I don’t remember anything else that happened during the three days of Valium. But I remember being very “at peace” with the world and life in general.
So maybe if we give a bunch of troublemakers like Mahmoud Ahmadinejad or Kim Jong Il some Valium, the world might be a safer place. Who’s with me?